Thursday, October 28, 2010
Ashley Campbell is a dear friend of mine from elementary and middle school. Her dad was the pastor at the first church I ever regularly attended, and she was the reason I started going there. Ashley's sister Sarah was like a little sister to me- she is precious. Anyway, their dad Rick was diagnosed with myeloma in March and they just found that it is active again.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
I’m running into Your arms
And I will never look back
So Jesus, here is my heart
Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.
Monday, October 25, 2010
Sunday, October 24, 2010
To all my friends and to all the people that I love (whether you love and pursue me or not)-
I want to love you like Christ loves you, and I am so sorry for letting my selfishness get in the way of that over and over again. It's not about me. It's not about me feeling dried up. It's about Jesus, being filled with Him and because I'm so filled with Him, overflowing with Him and His love.
I want to love because He loved. Not because I want to be loved in return. I am loved unconditionally by my God and that's all the love I need.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
On that note... I know this is really selfish of me, but I just can't put forth the effort that I have been into some friendships anymore. I literally can't. It's so draining when I get absolutely nothing in return from some people. Especially when I feel like they don't care about our friendship at all. If it doesn't matter to them, maybe it shouldn't matter to me so much. Yes, there are people that I still feel led to pursue and don't *shouldn't* expect anything in return (which should always be the case probably), but those people that I'm not feeling really called to pursue a friendship with right now... I'm just going to let it go. I hate that and it is so so difficult for me to say (will be even harder for me to actually do), but I have to do it because I have so many other things (God, other relationships, Young Life, school) I need to focus on. I have to get rid of some of the "drainers" in my life so that I can be filled in order to pour out.
Something that I'm looking forward to that I absolutely love- Panera with Jessie tomorrow. This time once a week seriously keeps me going. Time with her always makes me think about life, really consider the things I'm doing (whether they're actually worthwhile or not), and she always points me to the Lord. My time with her is always rich (NOT exhausting!). I don't know how it happens or how she does it- yes, I do... She lets God use her and speak through her. Incredible.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Today at church Tim Miller spoke about "Undeniable Forgiveness." I had actually heard this sermon before at The Walk... He used the scripture about the woman caught in adultery (John 8), and emphasized that it's only at the cross that Jesus says we don't owe Him anymore and that He offers us forgiveness.
2 Corinthians 5:21
God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.
When you were dead in your sins and in the uncircumcision of your sinful nature, God made you alive with Christ. He forgave us all our sins, having canceled the written code, with its regulations, that was against us and that stood opposed to us; he took it away, nailing it to the cross.
"If the God of Heaven and Earth has chosen to forgive you, who are you to hold anything against yourself?" -Scott Cagle (I really liked that)
Jesus said, "If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free."
It doesn't matter where you're coming from
Doesn’t matter where you’ve been,
Hear me tell you I forgive
You’re not guilty anymore,
You're not filthy anymore,
I love you, mercy is yours
You're not broken anymore,
You're not captive anymore
I love you, mercy is yours
Can you believe that this is true,
Grace abundant I am giving you
Cleansing deeper than you know,
All was paid for long ago
There is now therefore no condemnation
for those who are in Jesus
You are spotless
You are holy
You are faultless
You are whole
You are righteous
You are blameless
You are pardoned
You are mine
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
This is my infamous African boyfriend...
the one that wanted to see MY dance moves
the one that said "I'm going to miss you so much. This is like a Titanic moment." when I was leaving camp.
Here are some snippets from our conversation on facebook today:
Brian- how long is your hair now please don't cut it i love your hair....
Me- Hahaha it's a little past my shoulders.
Brian- I WISH IT GROWS TILL IT TOUCHS YOUR TOES.LOL
Brian- thanx dee.what time is it in the u.s.?
Brian- what on earth.im coming for breakfast.lo.lhere its 4:35
Me- Haha I'm in class...
Brian- naughty naughty dee ha ha ha.i miss the y.l guys esp you...
Here are some of those parts of the convo:
Me- How is your family?
Brian- they are mmmh alright.i dont know about my mom.i havent seen her in ages.but i think she's ok........
Me- and how are your friends?
Brian- oh they cool.although lately i've been spending a lot of time in isolation.
i'm going through a lot of stuff in my life dee and i just decided to be alone so i can find myself spiritually coz i seem to be losing my bearings
i guess its because i wish my dad was here to guide me through some things in life but he's not here.its hard being a man without fatherly guidance and a whole lot more.....
thanx dee its was cool chilling with you and talking to you my time is almost up
Miss it. So much.
Monday, October 11, 2010
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Friday, October 8, 2010
You are my love, my life
I would lay down my life
Just to be by You side
You are my love, my life
You are the grace that covers my sin
You're everything- the beginning and end
You have my soul, my heart, and my mind
You have my love and all of my life
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Ryan sent us this verse to read and pray over: