Really upset that all my pictures are gone! Tried to fix a couple, but it wasn't really working... As Chelcie would say- "tragic!"
Something about this weekend (maybe the excitement, maybe the lack of sleep, maybe the quality time with friends, maybe slamming my finger in the car door and using the boo boo bunny, but mostly likely becoming famous- being on ESPN and dominating the jumbotron) made me feel like myself again for the first time since I got back from Africa. I don't think I even realized how much I hadn't been myself until I felt like I was being myself again... if that makes any sense at all. I knew things were different- that I was even more awkward than before, that I never felt like being social, that my friendships were suffering which I think I blamed more on my friends than on myself which is completely backwards. I have been really clingy in some of my relationships lately (you know who you are, and I am sorry), and I have pushed others away drastically (again, sorry).
All of this is not to say that I'm completely back to the person I was before my trip because that would be false... It was a life-changing experience, and I don't think I will ever be the same because of it. I learned so much about my God, so much about myself, so much about Young Life and my ministry, and so much about relationships. I also grew so much in so many ways, and I am so thankful for that. I hope that I will be changed forever by what this trip taught me, but it is good to "feel like myself again" finally!
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Monday, September 13, 2010
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Things I love//am obsessed with//am addicted to:
One Tree Hill, NorthStar Church, Knoxville (wouldn't want to raise my kids anywhere else), Young Life, Vitamin Water (I'm trying to make it my replacement for Diet Coke for the time being), Love and Theft, Ellen, Friends (the show too, but more importantly my own friends), Sonic (esp. Route 44s- when I'm not fasting from DC), Waffle Cone Wednesday at TCBY (white chocolate mouse is my favorite thing to get in the cone), Tennessee (the state, the school, the sporting events), Blogging (mostly just reading other people's- I regularly read an unhealthy amount of blogs some of which I don't even know the person, but my own seems to be turning into an addiction as well), Vacation (particularly the beach), Goodwill, Weddings//Wedding photography//Wedding blogs, Sonic receipts with FREE Route 44 coupons, Pictures//Photography, Country Music (I put CMT because I didn't know what other kind of picture I could find to depict country music, but I don't really watch CMT very often), Lady Antebellum (I know country music covers them and Love and Theft but they're my favs right now), and last but not least... DIET COKE. I legitimately am addicted but have not had a (caffeinated) diet coke in almost two whole weeks! I'm trying to give it up since I won't be able to have much caffeine in Africa, and I want to go ahead and get the withdrawals out of the way before I get there!
I just realized I had a picture of my Bible that was supposed to make it onto here... Not sure what happened there. But pretend it's there! And that's because it's my guidebook to life! And something tangible to represent my relationship with Jesus which is the most important thing about me!
One Tree Hill, NorthStar Church, Knoxville (wouldn't want to raise my kids anywhere else), Young Life, Vitamin Water (I'm trying to make it my replacement for Diet Coke for the time being), Love and Theft, Ellen, Friends (the show too, but more importantly my own friends), Sonic (esp. Route 44s- when I'm not fasting from DC), Waffle Cone Wednesday at TCBY (white chocolate mouse is my favorite thing to get in the cone), Tennessee (the state, the school, the sporting events), Blogging (mostly just reading other people's- I regularly read an unhealthy amount of blogs some of which I don't even know the person, but my own seems to be turning into an addiction as well), Vacation (particularly the beach), Goodwill, Weddings//Wedding photography//Wedding blogs, Sonic receipts with FREE Route 44 coupons, Pictures//Photography, Country Music (I put CMT because I didn't know what other kind of picture I could find to depict country music, but I don't really watch CMT very often), Lady Antebellum (I know country music covers them and Love and Theft but they're my favs right now), and last but not least... DIET COKE. I legitimately am addicted but have not had a (caffeinated) diet coke in almost two whole weeks! I'm trying to give it up since I won't be able to have much caffeine in Africa, and I want to go ahead and get the withdrawals out of the way before I get there!
I just realized I had a picture of my Bible that was supposed to make it onto here... Not sure what happened there. But pretend it's there! And that's because it's my guidebook to life! And something tangible to represent my relationship with Jesus which is the most important thing about me!
Updated 25
Thought I'd update the 25 things from two posts back... Can you tell I get bored when all my friends are in class//at work?
1. Jesus is still my number one priority. I pray that this will always be true. As you can probably tell from the last post… I’m still completely blown away by His grace. Don’t think that will ever change.
2. My sister is now 7 so I guess the first time I did this was more than a year ago… She’s awesome. She can beat me up, but she’s awesome. She is constantly making me laugh. I'm a little concerned for her teenage years... that will be interesting.
3. Same.
4. Still absolutely cannot tell people no. It’s becoming a serious problem. I end up doing things I don’t want to all the time (like babysitting, going to midnight premieres of movies I don’t care about, etc… if it were something more serious, I would make myself say no. Don’t worry.).
5. I am still a little bit OCD about some things, which you would never know by the way my room looks currently.
6. Sadly, I no longer take a nap every Sunday afternoon.
7. Yes, I love love love listening to people’s life stories. It fascinates me to see how people have gone through life and what has made them who they are today.
8. Unfortunately, I find myself talking about me wayyy too much sometimes. I don’t even realize I’m doing it until I’ve already said more than anyone ever wanted to know. (Ironic that this entire post is about me?)
9. Well… My headaches went away for a while. I hardly ever get migraines anymore… but I recently gave up diet coke so I’ve been having withdrawals like crazy because I was (am) super addicted.
10. It makes me laugh a little bit that I said this because… duh! I think that applies to pretty much everyone!
11. This has gotten a little bit better, I think. I hope. I still am scared to get too close to people though. Sorry to everyone that has to deal with that!
12. This also has gotten a little bit better. Not a lot, but a little bit.
13. That’s funny. I think I made that up? I can’t have caffeine at night, but after lunchtime is definitely okay. Still think it’s all mental though.
14. Yuck. Still don’t like milk.
15. Pretty much still true. I just listen to country like 97% of the time though.
16. Funny that I said I was really scared of divorce but fully trusting God. Seems to contradict itself a little... but honestly, I still kind of feel that way! I am terrified of it happening to me because I don’t think I could handle that… but God knows me better than I know myself and knows what’s best for me. I do completely trust Him with that because I believe that if I go about the whole situation the way it was meant to happen that it will work out. Marriages aren’t meant to end in divorce. Sadly they do. Way too often. But I want my relationship with my (future) spouse to be completely God-centered, and I know that if we give our marriage to Him 100% that He will take care of us, and that He will get us through the trials.
17. Definitely still like to do things my way, but I’m learning more and more that it works out a whole lot better if I just surrender everything to my Creator who knows the plan for my life.
18. I am still really close to both of my parents. They’re wonderful. Drive me crazy sometimes, but they really are great, and I am so thankful for them. They love me so well, and I need be better about showing them and telling them how much I love them.
19. Don’t like to lead… because I usually don’t know where I’m going.
20. Very true. Don’t exercise nearly enough, still eat way more than I should.
21. I adore the upcoming sophomores (AHH that is so weird that they’re not freshmen anymore!) girls that I hang out with at CAK. They are such sweet girls, and I am so blessed to get to walk through life with them. This experience humbles me so much because it is amazing that God can use someone so inadequate to minister to these wonderful girls. It is ALL Him because there is NO way I could do any of it!
22. Majoring in Psychology, minoring in Elementary Education. Plan on getting my Master’s in Education and becoming an elementary school teacher. Still debating what grade because I always thought 3rd, but I worked in a Kindergarten classroom this year and became slightly obsessed with the precious students.
23. Stopped watching OTH for a while but recently caught up, and it’s still just as addicting as ever!
24. How can I not forgive people after I have been forgiven so many times by friends, family, and especially God?
25. Very indecisive.
1. Jesus is still my number one priority. I pray that this will always be true. As you can probably tell from the last post… I’m still completely blown away by His grace. Don’t think that will ever change.
2. My sister is now 7 so I guess the first time I did this was more than a year ago… She’s awesome. She can beat me up, but she’s awesome. She is constantly making me laugh. I'm a little concerned for her teenage years... that will be interesting.
3. Same.
4. Still absolutely cannot tell people no. It’s becoming a serious problem. I end up doing things I don’t want to all the time (like babysitting, going to midnight premieres of movies I don’t care about, etc… if it were something more serious, I would make myself say no. Don’t worry.).
5. I am still a little bit OCD about some things, which you would never know by the way my room looks currently.
6. Sadly, I no longer take a nap every Sunday afternoon.
7. Yes, I love love love listening to people’s life stories. It fascinates me to see how people have gone through life and what has made them who they are today.
8. Unfortunately, I find myself talking about me wayyy too much sometimes. I don’t even realize I’m doing it until I’ve already said more than anyone ever wanted to know. (Ironic that this entire post is about me?)
9. Well… My headaches went away for a while. I hardly ever get migraines anymore… but I recently gave up diet coke so I’ve been having withdrawals like crazy because I was (am) super addicted.
10. It makes me laugh a little bit that I said this because… duh! I think that applies to pretty much everyone!
11. This has gotten a little bit better, I think. I hope. I still am scared to get too close to people though. Sorry to everyone that has to deal with that!
12. This also has gotten a little bit better. Not a lot, but a little bit.
13. That’s funny. I think I made that up? I can’t have caffeine at night, but after lunchtime is definitely okay. Still think it’s all mental though.
14. Yuck. Still don’t like milk.
15. Pretty much still true. I just listen to country like 97% of the time though.
16. Funny that I said I was really scared of divorce but fully trusting God. Seems to contradict itself a little... but honestly, I still kind of feel that way! I am terrified of it happening to me because I don’t think I could handle that… but God knows me better than I know myself and knows what’s best for me. I do completely trust Him with that because I believe that if I go about the whole situation the way it was meant to happen that it will work out. Marriages aren’t meant to end in divorce. Sadly they do. Way too often. But I want my relationship with my (future) spouse to be completely God-centered, and I know that if we give our marriage to Him 100% that He will take care of us, and that He will get us through the trials.
17. Definitely still like to do things my way, but I’m learning more and more that it works out a whole lot better if I just surrender everything to my Creator who knows the plan for my life.
18. I am still really close to both of my parents. They’re wonderful. Drive me crazy sometimes, but they really are great, and I am so thankful for them. They love me so well, and I need be better about showing them and telling them how much I love them.
19. Don’t like to lead… because I usually don’t know where I’m going.
20. Very true. Don’t exercise nearly enough, still eat way more than I should.
21. I adore the upcoming sophomores (AHH that is so weird that they’re not freshmen anymore!) girls that I hang out with at CAK. They are such sweet girls, and I am so blessed to get to walk through life with them. This experience humbles me so much because it is amazing that God can use someone so inadequate to minister to these wonderful girls. It is ALL Him because there is NO way I could do any of it!
22. Majoring in Psychology, minoring in Elementary Education. Plan on getting my Master’s in Education and becoming an elementary school teacher. Still debating what grade because I always thought 3rd, but I worked in a Kindergarten classroom this year and became slightly obsessed with the precious students.
23. Stopped watching OTH for a while but recently caught up, and it’s still just as addicting as ever!
24. How can I not forgive people after I have been forgiven so many times by friends, family, and especially God?
25. Very indecisive.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
25
I'm starting this new blog because so many of the posts on the old one I don't want other people to read... so this one's going to be more for the public eye :) Just to start it out I thought I'd put the "25 things about me" that was a huge facebook trend about a year ago. Some have changed, but I think for the most part they still apply!
1. Jesus is my first priority. I try to live my life for Him, but fail constantly. His grace is amazing, and I don’t understand how He can forgive me time after time… but I am so thankful that He does.
2. My five-year-old sister is my best friend, and I miss her terribly when I’m at school.
3. I try to live my life without regrets, and I do learn from my mistakes.
4. It’s very difficult for me to tell people “no”. This leads to me babysitting pretty much every time someone asks me to even though I usually really don’t want to.
5. I am OCD about my handwriting. When I’m taking notes, I erase them and rewrite them over and over if I have time. If I’m writing them down in a hurry though, I just let it be messy and then type them up when I get back to my room.
6. If I don’t have my Sunday afternoon nap, the whole week is thrown off.
7. I love listening to people and hearing about their lives.
8. I don’t really like talking about myself… Probably why it’s taken me so long to do this. But I knew I would follow the trend eventually, so why not now? Sometimes I just don’t talk much in general. Especially around people I don’t know very well. I’m really afraid that sometimes it seems like I’m stuck up, but sometimes I just can’t think of anything to say.
9. I get headaches daily. They vary in intensity.
10. When I do/say something that upsets someone else, I immediately wish I could take it back.
11. I always push away the people I care about most. I really wish I didn’t do this, but probably always will. I’ve been hurt by people walking out of my life so many times before that I’m scared to let people in. It’s selfish, I know… but I really can’t help it. It’s not intentional.
12. I am an extremely light sleeper. My text alert is a tiny, quiet little beep, and even that wakes me up. I would love to be a heavier sleeper! I wake up many times during the night, and it drives me crazy!
13. I can’t have caffeine after lunchtime or I won’t be able to sleep that night. I think it’s mental.
14. I hate milk. I put skim milk on my cereal, but that is the only time I can stand the taste.
15. I would much rather listen to country or Christian music than any other kind.
16. I will have a very long engagement, and I want to be married for a long time before I start having kids. Divorce has been very common in my family, and I am terrified of that happening to me. I am fully trusting God with that, but I still worry sometimes.
17. I am a little bit of a control freak so it is hard for me to give everything to God, and not try to do things my way.
18. I am extremely close to my parents and tell them pretty much everything. My friends think it’s really weird.
19. I hate walking in the front when I’m with people.
20. I never exercise, and I eat way too much. I’ve been to the gym one time since college started. I’m really going to have to start working out, but I hate the thought of it.
21. I’m going to be a Young Life leader, and I am so so excited to live out God’s plan!
22. I have wanted to be a teacher since the 3rd grade. And that’s what grade I want to teach.
23. I am slightly obsessed with One Tree Hill.
24. I am usually quick to forgive, and I don’t hold grudges… with one exception.
25. I’m very indecisive.
1. Jesus is my first priority. I try to live my life for Him, but fail constantly. His grace is amazing, and I don’t understand how He can forgive me time after time… but I am so thankful that He does.
2. My five-year-old sister is my best friend, and I miss her terribly when I’m at school.
3. I try to live my life without regrets, and I do learn from my mistakes.
4. It’s very difficult for me to tell people “no”. This leads to me babysitting pretty much every time someone asks me to even though I usually really don’t want to.
5. I am OCD about my handwriting. When I’m taking notes, I erase them and rewrite them over and over if I have time. If I’m writing them down in a hurry though, I just let it be messy and then type them up when I get back to my room.
6. If I don’t have my Sunday afternoon nap, the whole week is thrown off.
7. I love listening to people and hearing about their lives.
8. I don’t really like talking about myself… Probably why it’s taken me so long to do this. But I knew I would follow the trend eventually, so why not now? Sometimes I just don’t talk much in general. Especially around people I don’t know very well. I’m really afraid that sometimes it seems like I’m stuck up, but sometimes I just can’t think of anything to say.
9. I get headaches daily. They vary in intensity.
10. When I do/say something that upsets someone else, I immediately wish I could take it back.
11. I always push away the people I care about most. I really wish I didn’t do this, but probably always will. I’ve been hurt by people walking out of my life so many times before that I’m scared to let people in. It’s selfish, I know… but I really can’t help it. It’s not intentional.
12. I am an extremely light sleeper. My text alert is a tiny, quiet little beep, and even that wakes me up. I would love to be a heavier sleeper! I wake up many times during the night, and it drives me crazy!
13. I can’t have caffeine after lunchtime or I won’t be able to sleep that night. I think it’s mental.
14. I hate milk. I put skim milk on my cereal, but that is the only time I can stand the taste.
15. I would much rather listen to country or Christian music than any other kind.
16. I will have a very long engagement, and I want to be married for a long time before I start having kids. Divorce has been very common in my family, and I am terrified of that happening to me. I am fully trusting God with that, but I still worry sometimes.
17. I am a little bit of a control freak so it is hard for me to give everything to God, and not try to do things my way.
18. I am extremely close to my parents and tell them pretty much everything. My friends think it’s really weird.
19. I hate walking in the front when I’m with people.
20. I never exercise, and I eat way too much. I’ve been to the gym one time since college started. I’m really going to have to start working out, but I hate the thought of it.
21. I’m going to be a Young Life leader, and I am so so excited to live out God’s plan!
22. I have wanted to be a teacher since the 3rd grade. And that’s what grade I want to teach.
23. I am slightly obsessed with One Tree Hill.
24. I am usually quick to forgive, and I don’t hold grudges… with one exception.
25. I’m very indecisive.
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