In one of my education classes, we start off each class with around 20 minutes of writing time to write whatever we want. I had no idea what to write about when we did it for the first time yesterday, and I had no intentions of ever typing it up to put it on my blog... but now I've decided to. It's kind of long and wordy, so just bear with me if you're interested!
This is my first writers' workshop in my Elem Ed 528 class, and I am not entirely sure what I'm supposed to write about. I don't think it really matters, but I don't know whether it is supposed to be a journal or a creative writing log or what... so here goes nothing:
So far I am really disliking this semester. I am trying to have a better attitude towards it, but I don't enjoy night classes. This is mainly because I am tired and can't focus well at night. Plus they are nearly 3 hours, making it even more difficult to focus. 3/5 of my classes are at night and I have Young Life club on Monday nights. Thankfully I have no class on Fridays- that's a nice break!
It is so hard to believe that I am a senior in college! I'm taking 2 courses for graduate credit. Next year I will be interning, and then I'll be "out in the real world." It's both scary and exciting. More scary. If I didn't have hope and faith in God to guide me through these next years, I would definitely be really stressed out (more than I already am)- I'm just trying to constantly remind myself to trust in Him because He has an incredible plan... and that plan is not about me, but about glorifying Him. How humbling.
Remembering that really puts things into perspective. My life's purpose is to make much of Him- even if it's difficult at times. The purpose of my life is not for me to be happy... even though He does promise that all things will work together for my good if I believe in Him. I just never want to lose sight of the bigger picture (even though I am trying to learn to live in the small moments right now [shout out to my small group])- all too often I get caught up in thinking it's about me and wondering why I'm not happy.
In reality, I have no reason not to be happy- God has blessed me with incredible family and friends that love me well and so much more. My life is actually pretty wonderful, and He doesn't have to make it that way because IT'S NOT ABOUT ME.
I want my life to be about glorifying the Lord and furthering His kingdom. So what if it's difficult or uncomfortable sometimes- I've already received the greatest gift of all time and have the promise of eternal life in Paradise ahead of me.
Life here on Earth is short... so I need to be living it abundantly, and through Christ I can do that. God does impossible things in the lives of ordinary people. I want to wait expectantly for Him to do these things in and around me. He has already made me a new creation- brought me from death to life in Him. If He can do that, if He can save me, He can truly do anything. I believe that and want to live as if I do.
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